Decisions, decisions

Alas, there are too many choices
And decisions are here to make,
To take
But I don't have the answers
The choices are mine to create
To marvel and explore
One foot grounded and a toe in the water,
Itching to go
But I don't know
Whats there
Whats not
I keep jumping and landing on the same spot
A feeling of movement for a minute
That stops
I look back
I look left and right
But forwards blinds me
Ahead is a maze
I don't want to get lost
I remember being lost before
In the darkness
A darkness in my mind
A tunnel of nothing, not feeling
In my head
It haunts me
and all because
I know that it's still there